Im still here!. Cant quite work me out though. Had a super day at work....am enjoyin it whilst it lasts seeing as im unemployed again after Friday.
In fact today my mood sorta suited the day. Fresh!
I wish my feelings and thoughts would stabilise though. I soooo dont need them yawing around the way they are. One minute im at the bottom (hence previous post..for which my apologies if i scared anyone...not intended!) the next im about as high as it gets.
I know everyone has swings of emotion and feeling but i feel like im on a permanent rollercoaster and it can be quite scary.
Im battling my revulsion for my appearance at the moment. I hate me!.
I have rolls that would put a bakery to shame....and my skin has reverted back to teenage hormone status. Im way past that ffs.
Wish i could put it down to bad living but i cant...unfortunately. I eat very healthily (ok i have the occasional choc bar thrown in...im human what can i say?) and i exercise regularly. I just cannot shift the weight.
My partner loves me as i am...but how can he?...honestly. No one...if they are being 100% truthful...likes the sight of pale wobbly flesh. Its vile!
I have a great personality im told....but you know what?...id swap it anyday for a svelte size 10/12 and clear skin.
I think i will go an watch an action movie...escapism works wonders!
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You could have been describing me there. Well apart from any girly bits, but nobody really likes the way they look. Your partner loves you for being you, and not some *Perfect 10* no personality, me, me, me bitch.
Be yourself, be true to yourself, try to avoid the things in life where you feel down, feel good about yourself, there's a lot worse than you and I, a great deal worse. Enjoy life, and just let the bad stuff wash over you, do things that make you feel good. Have a nice one. Gog..
Know how you feel, been there and go back regularly.
I've read "final exit" also. But TODAY is the issue.
What helps me is focusing and finding things-and people- I'm grateful for. That changes my spirit for the better, even if it's just for right now. I''m
grateful for YOU! Thanks.
Stephani
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